Actually it was a nightmare.
I was so powerful that I started this new blog, seprerate from my other blog or my website.
I wanted to talk about it but Would anyone understand? Would thet think I am wierd, judge me?
Well I am wierd, but this dream bothered me.
It should be said that the cause of this dream was probably because I saw "land of the dead" last night and also because of the late night run I had to walmart , where I looked at a gun magazine. Also the little debbi snack I ate right before bed proably didn't help.
...darn I forgot the dream already!
ok I will write down what I remember:
I was in a house that was remarkably like the house I grew up in, in Chicago.
Outside it was sepia, or tan with smoke in the background. I was in a warzone, perhaps in the middle east.
In my house my older sister was asleep in the other room.
Three men break in to my house. 2 in military uniform and one in civilian clothes. It was my understanding that one was a military leader, one was a soldier and the one in civilian attire was a religious leader.
Although I never saw guns I knew we were threatened an that they would kill us if we gave them reason to. We were hostages, completely at their mercy, slaves to their whims.
I hid at first. I snuck in to to check on my sister and all three where on top of her on her bed. I couldn't see though becasue I wasn't wearing my glasses [I wear glasses in real life].
I was disturbed.
I went back to my room and retreved my gun case [in real life I have a .45 1911 stored in a case that looks like an organizer. it appeard so in this dream]
Before I opened it I think I may have been sitting on my bed, wondering, can I kill these three men? Can I do it fast enough so one doesn't over power me while I shoot the others?
That other man is the pope (or like the pope? he didn't look like any pope I had ever seen in fact later in the dream he was revealed to be muslim as all three were.)
I walked to the door with my case in my left hand and they caught me. I dropped my gun in case on the other side of the door, obscuring it from vision. They apparently didn't hear it thud. There was a battle going on.
One of my other reasons for hesitations were taht I only carry 8 rounds in one magazine, with no round in the chamber. If I shot all three of these men would more come in and kill us? DId They have companions outs side?
Also a big concern was that I don't leave my pistol in real ife or in the dream in "condition 1" with a round chambered. If I racked the slide would I alert them before I could take them out. And if I just walked into her room and started blasting I might get her too.
all things to consider. AND it wieghed heavy on me.
So they caught me so I dropped the gun i and it was concealed. With arms up I began acting like a collaborator, sucking up to them as much as I could.
They were nervous, searching the house, looking out the windows. They semed to be on the run and seeking refuge. I guess no one else was waiting outside to help them.
awake right now , as I type this I am am disturbed with what they did to my sister. Why did my brain come up with that?. I am sad and disgusted with that.
back to the dream:
Eventually after following them and helping them. I gained access to my sister. I asked " did they rape you?"
She looked at me, obviously not wantingto talk about it and slowly nodded her head.
The rest of the dream I was a mix of kissing up to them and trying to get my gun, Rack the slide and killing them.
This is not easy to do, quietly. To chamber a round in a 1911 is a trickky manuever. YOu have to pull back the slide and let it slap forward. I have tryed it with a 'snap cap' before. I tried with varying pressures. I could not chamber one properly from the magazine by slowly and quitely releasing the slide.
High stress, looking for the right moment to get them all.
I woke up from this dream before I killed them. It was 5:19 am. 30mins to an hour before I usually wake up. It was a horrible dream and I am still feeling its effects!
